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It’s days like this I hate the no sleep of autism.

3.44 we’ve been up, Z thinks it’s funny and is screaming as loud as he can, the husband is shouting at him to shut up because he’s tired and has work and days like this he can’t stand autism and he never gets any sleep. I’m then screaming at him he hasn’t been disturbed at all this week as every time Z has moved I’ve jumped up in my half asleep state and put him back into bed, not that he would know as all week he’s been staying up to watch a film and then going to sleep in spare room as to not wake me ‘coz of course I’m (he’s) getting a full nights sleep, today I was too slow. Lesson learned.

I’m tired and about to loose my patience, Z is throwing things and screeching then laughing but tired. My neighbours must think we’ve all lost it as I’m shouting get down stairs you wanna get in a window the get up it’s safer down stairs where I can see you, no you ain’t going to sleep you want to get up get up. As he’s throwing things and crying.

My patience is going, I’m tired, being awake at 3.44 I’m also hungry and after listening to Z scream for the last two hours I’ve also got a head ache, it’s not the normal kids scream this is a high pitched make all the dogs bark scream. It’s the point that I could happily just let him scream in the garden.

At least at 2 or 3 am wake up he goes back after 2 hours is it worth letting him sleep for 45 minutes when he eventually goes back at 6?

I have his annual review today so I can’t come home and nap, not that I’ve actually ever napped but this is the first time he’s been up so early after I’d quit work for this reason. That’s when I get so angry and annoyed is because if I have something on that I can’t change he will go back to sleep at 5 and I get an hour then when I think I’m waking at 7 it’s not as bad as up before 4.

Try to look at the positives I can have a shower and wash and dry my hair before leaving for work this morning and not have to face around doing it at 9.30 .

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Snow day take two!

We’ve had a little bit more snow! It’s no where near as deep as last time, but I’m guessing last time it snowed on the weekend so school didn’t really matter.

This time it was your typical snow day, it snowed, it froze, everywhere was extremely Icy that equals no school!

Z for one was glad of no school, he was dragging me to the door at 8.30!

It was get him dressed and out the back where I knew he was safe, got me dressed had a bit of a tidy up and meet B and B for lunch. Z now associates a hat with snow, he’ll wear one to go to play but the moment he’s in it’s off.

After lunch we had a quick look around the shops, and then headed to the Garwnant, thought being in the mountains it would have a little more snow than it did!

The park was quiet, no one in there so the boys had it to themselves. It was cold! I was saying I should have worn a hat and forgot there was one in the car!

There wasn’t a lot of snow in the park, but enough for Z to crawl through!

I do love the snow and so glad Z likes it too. I really really need to take him to a ski resort I’m thinking he’d have a ball. He just runs and dives into the snow, all the time laughing.

He was gutted last time it all went! There was a small patch on the mountain opposite and I always remember as a kid my grampa telling me that there’s snow on the mountain there’s still more snow to come. Yet again he was correct! The bit of snow that hung around for two weeks was in the same spot that it always hung around in, this time I’ll be keeping another eye and see if it melts with the rest of it or if we will have at least one more snow day over Easter!

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Home made Lip balm.

Going well on my less plastic Zero waste journey.

After making toilet bombs I’ve also made bath bombs , melts and next up lip balm.

I don’t use a lot of lip balm but I do like my eos and of course less plastic means I need to find an alternative!

After searching google I found my main ingredients, bees wax, Shea butter, coconut oil and some essential oils.

I melted the shea butter, coconut oil and beeswax together, I’d read about double boiling so I say my bowl on top of a sieve of boiling water, it took a while but constant stirring and it was ok. Just before I was ready to transfer into my tins I added some banana scent essential oil.

I was a little nervous in case it didn’t set or didn’t work.

It set lovely! It’s not too hard, and it makes my lips lovely and soft!

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Home made beeswax melts

I love my candles, I quickly learnt that wax melts are stronger and not as expensive!

But they all come in plastic of some sort.

So operation make my own! Just like my bath bombs and toilet bombs .

I got my beeswax from amazon, but am looking to source more local beeswax when I’m out!

I melted my wax and down and added in some coconut oil in a dish over a sieve of boiling water, and added some essential oil just before pouring, yup it really was that simple.

Pour into my moulds, when still hot and runny as it does dry quick.

I never measure out, maybe I should!

I’ve burnt mine up to four times and they still smelt as strong as the first time. I’m not really sure how many times you can burn each one I’m going to until the stop smelling!

Next time I’m going to add a drop of food colouring to maybe change the colour I’ll let you know how I get on!

Next up my home made lip balm!

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Home made bath bombs.

After the success of my home made toilet bombs I attempted home made bath bombs. I’ve not bought bleach for three months I’m hoping to save money on bath bombs! The citric acid and bicarbonate of soda I think cost 99p from Wilkos, as for the salt b&ms for £3. There was cheaper but I didn’t want the plastic and will reuse the glass jar! So other than my zero waste and less plastic I’m actually saving money.

Now Z loves the lush ones, he loves watching them fizz until they’ve disappeared.

I knew I had the main ingredients from the toilet bombs, the only thing I would need would be Epsom salts and some food colouring to make them pretty!

Lavender bath bombs are a go!

I mixed the citric acid and bicarbonate of soda together, added in the Epsom salt and a few drops of lavender essential oil and a few drops of red food colouring, mixed it well, just needed a few squirts of water as I had the oil and food colouring holding it quite well.

After the few sprays it needed to be put into moulds quickly.

Scooped it in and patted it down with my finger. It all felt quite sturdy.

The next test was Z, of course I choose lavender in the hope that it would make him sleep! It passed the fizz test, and Z was happy he wanted another.

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Snow days

When the snow was forecast and the school was closed there was no snow just howling wind.

Fast forward a few hours and some places were white others patchy. The front garden was over Z’s head in some places, yet the back parts were clear.

I wasn’t sure on what he would think of the deep snow, we had some a few weeks back that he loved but nowhere near as deep as this time.

He loved it!

He didn’t want to come in and we were out there before 8!

where ever he went the pooch went too!

We went for a walk and he was sliding, crawling and jumping the entire time laughing. He was looking down the holes, he was digging away at snow he was interested , curious and happy that’s progress right there!

We went to the park with B and B where lots of it was clear but had to get to it first! He learnt early on that if he crawled across it he wouldn’t get stuck!

Tomorrow is back to normal, schools are back, and the snow is slowly melting away. Z will be gutted.

We may not have had the same snow days as most when they head out sledging, home to a film and hit chocolate but we had fun in the only way Z knows how to. I’m impressed not only did he keep his gloves on he also kept a hat and scarf too. This is progress!

Everyone will be wishing it all away, praying for summer, us here if we can have more snow and extend the winter I’ll take it! We’ve had a blast!