by Jo Cooksey | Feb 10, 2019 | ivf
7 years ago Z was made, every year since he was born we’ve celebrated made today Day. I wrote about the whole day here if you wanted to read about that chapter of our life before Z! 10th Feb, it’s always an emotional day, how far we went to get our little...
by Jo Cooksey | Jan 18, 2019 | ivf, Miscarrige
This weekend was your due date. I’m pretty certain if you had made it you’d have been here by now. To believe it’s been nine months. Nine months of living lives. For those few days when people said oh I’m sorry you were thought of. Those few...
by Jo Cooksey | Oct 1, 2018 | ivf, Miscarrige
So October is baby loss and miscarriage awareness month. Where people light candles and share posts on social media. I know I did without knowing how hard being that 1 in 4 is. Z who up until May, I wasn’t 100% certain but you can’t go through a confirmed...
by Jo Cooksey | Jun 9, 2018 | ivf
Today I should have seen you for the first time. Two of you maybe one. Today will be a little empty, being places I was not meant to be. Last night I dreamt that I was in the scan room, Z running around with me. I saw your flashing heart beat and you wiggling away. My...
by Jo Cooksey | May 24, 2018 | ivf
This maybe hard to read, this was hard to write. This was written through some tears, some sitting in the waiting room, with anger and sadness with grief and being emotionally and physical drained but also with that percentage of being thankful for what I have. I...
by Jo Cooksey | Apr 28, 2018 | ivf
To be honest I think working where I was at the time was how we knew. Working as a nanny for a gynaecologist you just start chatting away. Was asked did I want children in the future etc, conversation most probably went umm not too sure, I suppose so when I’m a...
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