Miscarriage, baby loss, it doesn’t actually get any easier. October 15th the end of baby loss awareness week. My second year of understanding the pain, lighting a candle in memory.
I know one day we’ll meet again, we’ll all be one big happy family, you’ll be much bigger than when we said goodbye. That’s ok, I’ve come to terms with that. I know Z is a rainbow baby, something officially loosing two confirmed.
They say that it’s 1 in 4, that’s a lie, my news feed is full of candles, that’s more than 1 in 4 sadly.
People don’t like to talk about miscarriage, but it’s a part of me, you are a part of me, you’ll always be my biggest what if. I’m just one of the lucky ones that got to meet you.
It’s not going to get any easier, the memories will just be put to the back of our minds, people will forget, people won’t talk about it.
But to me as uncomfortable as it may be I’ll always bring mine into conversation. I’m determined to complete my course, because without loss I wouldn’t be doing it today.